An Open Letter To My Son.
My darling Prince,
Just over 4 years ago you came into our lives after a very long and painful wait. You made us into parents and changed our lives forever. As far as cliches go I think this is the biggest, but I cannot believe how fast time has gone. And now you are set to start the next chapter in your life and prepare for the biggest change we’ve both dealt with so far. It’s time to start school.
My best friend; We’ve made it through the newborn haze, the endless baby groups, the terrible twos, the threenager years, and now that you’re a really cool little dude you’re leaving me behind to make new friends. To become even more independant and discover a totally different lifestyle.
I made a promise this time last year that we would have the absolute best year enjoying your pre-school adventures, that I would appreciate every day with you, I hope you have had as much fun as I have, I hope I’ve made this time enjoyable for you. You don’t just leave me behind of course. Your biggest fan, your little Brother, is going to be absolutely lost without you. He dotes on your every word and is going to be so sad to see you walk into those big doors and leave us behind each day.
I have been struggling internally with this big change, looming above me like a black cloud. But outwardly having to champion the idea of you beginning this new adventure. “Think of all the new friends you’re going to make, and how much fun you will have playing with them every day” reminding you of all the exciting things you get to do each day. Knowing inside that I wished I was there with you doing them all too, and feeling jealousy that I wont be. But during these last few days of time off with you I have had to come to accept that there is nothing I can do about this impending new chapter and I have started to become excited to see all the things you will be learning and showing us when you get home. To see how your clever little brain and impeccable memory are put to the test each day, eagerly I will wait to hear at the end of your day all the new things you know.
Henry, for all the days I’ve needed your help with George, needed you to help like a “big boy”, for all the times I needed to work and you graciously let me, for all the times I felt like a failure because I had a deadline and you had to do a puzzle or occupy yourself. For all the times I lost my temper dealing with the excruciatingly slow pace that is related with toddlers doing every. single. task. For all the times you’ve asked me to play Rescue Bots and I couldn’t think of anything I would want to do less. For everything you have taught me about myself and about how to be a mother, thank you. You’ve already made us so proud, I know you will continue to do so.
Your uniform is freshly pressed by Daddy, the labels are stuck in to socks and all, and your overly expensive new schools shoes are ready and waiting to be destroyed on day one. I wont let you see those tears rolling down my face as you walk away from me, but I will be there to greet you with the biggest smile on my face as you come out, ready to embarrass you with a great big cuddle.
So my darling, my best friend, my biggest achievement, it’s time. Be yourself, that’s all you need to do today.